I can’t wait to meet you dear fiancee,
I’ve kept my eye on you.
I know that it’s not me that decides,
Whether we’re meant for each other.
You could easily die tomorrow,
And alternatively so could I.
And that would be the end of those dreams,
And I would simply have to accept and move on.
There are no certainties in life,
Eventhough we try to hold on to our dreams.
We become attached to things we want and desire,
Always forgetting that it’s Allah who’s in charge.
We charge towards our dreams,
Putting our faith in the means,
And then becoming heartbroken,
When the means lets us down.
I feel hopeful of our meeting,
But at the same time I worry,
That I might be getting attached to,
The idea of something that might not even be meant for me.
I worry about the noise around me,
All the people that will attempt to drive us apart,
Who have their own agendas,
That are different to yours and mine.
As long as we are both committed to being good partners,
In light of the Qur’aan and sunnah.
And be forgiving of each other,
Of all of our dunya related flaws.
As much as we can try to keep our relationship pure,
There will always be external influences.
The shaytan will try to get in between us,
And sometimes that will be in the form of other people,
Trying to meddle in our affairs.
But I’m determined to move beyond this,
And focus on my very own life.
I’m here to please Allah,
So it doesn’t matter what the world thinks.
Ya Allah, help me to purify my soul.
I’ve been a horrible, horrible being.
I feel dirty and flawed,
Of all the nasty things I’ve been doing,
That may have driven us apart.
Please don’t abandon me my Lord.
I’m soo sorry and I seek your forgiveness.
It’s you who I should be seeking to please,
Not anyone else in the dunya,
So please accept my repentance,
I mean this humbly.
InshaAllah I want to improve,
But I know right now I’m just so bad,
But I hope things change,
As I’m determined to make it so.