The door gets closed in your face sometimes,
From people who you depended on,
And the ones that provided the solution.
Oh how flawed were we,
To place that trust on those who didn’t deserve it,
To give all thanks and appreciation,
To the ones that Allah sent our way.
He is the one who is deserving of most of the glory,
But He is the one we neglect the most,
Preferring His creatures over Him.
How painful this lesson is,
And I’m still learning.
How easy it is to put your faith in what lies in front of you.
Though the smartest and wisest depend on what cannot be seen,
They spend their thoughts on what is worthy,
And they devote their time and energy to the one above.
I don’t know what the future holds,
Or when there’ll be victory.
That lies in Gods’ hands.
I must find my way back to God in the meantime.
I must embrace being by myself,
And enjoining the good,
Rather than looking to the past,
Or hoping that those who let me down return to me.
I’m putting my hope, my longing and devoting my love towards,
All the wrong things.
Things that will perish,
Just like me.
Things that are clueless and lost,
Just like me.
I can be great, alone,
By putting my faith in God,
And forging a way out of this.
Building my health, strength and momentum,
And then shining for Allah to see.
Oh God, please grant me the strength and motivation to worship you,
Cos right now, I struggle to be Muslim.
I still believe you’re up there,
But just feel slightly distant from you.
I know I need to reach out,
But it’s requiring a lot from me.
Ya Allah, please help me.