So it seems that feelings are important after all.
It was that beautiful feeling years ago,
As I stood on the prayer mat to pray to my Lord,
That made me think – wow this is divine.
If it wasn’t for that feeling,
Then who knows, I might not have survived in my practice,
I may have turned away from my Lord,
So I’m grateful that Allah allowed me to experience that bliss,
And gave me a good life,
And allowed me to taste the sweetness of iman.
Sometimes one’s heart becomes so hard,
That they’re unable to experience the pleasure or bliss of reaching Allah.
Or sometimes one can be so distant from their Lord,
Their focus and worry being on all of the means around them,
But that wasn’t what they were intended for at all.
The dunya was there to serve our akhirah needs.
We were meant to manipulate the world around us,
To become closer to Allah and actualise our iman.
But in turns out that sometimes we lie,
We tell ourselves that our actions are for Allah,
But really they’re not.
They’re for the dunya, our desires,
Our need to please our ego and our nafs.
They’re for glory and for fame,
And to feel good about ourselves.
So sometimes it’s good when the Almighty Allah,
Decides to take the dunya away from us,
Which makes us crumble to the floor.
We feel grief and misery at all that we’ve lost,
But at least we turn to Allah out of intense helplessness and the stark realisation,
That in fact we are nothing at all,
Nothing without the power of our Lord.
He grants what He wills to us,
And if He so chooses that one day it is time,
For us to lose everything that is dear to us,
Then there’ll be nothing we can do.
We can be hurt, upset, angry and in a rage,
But a true believer would just be indifferent to it all.
He won’t have let the dunya enter his heart,
As He knew that it was all just tools,
That Allah had leant to him,
To utilise for the sake of his Lord.
To help them become near to Him,
And help them on their quest,
To reach a better understanding,
And be more conscious of their deen.
How we can all stray,
And allow ourselves to be attached,
To all of these tools,
Which is why we’re devastated if Allah so chooses,
To take them away from us.
But inshaAllah a true believer will rise,
He will have hope that Allah is looking out for him.
He will utilise the means,
But know and acknowledge that it isn’t due to the means,
That he’ll get what’s destined for him.
It’s due to Allah, the Lord of the Worlds.
The one who created all of this.
The one who knows the future and the past.
The one whom no-one can hide from,
And the one who loves us more than anyone else.
So why then is it that we allow the dunya to get in between us?
It’s because we’re foolish and forgetful,
And our environment around us weakens our heart.
The shaytan will whisper to us,
“Go on, no-one’s looking”,
But that’s false because Allah, the Almighty, is.
He knows all that we do,
All that we feel.
Every last ounce of us is at his mercy.
And if Allah were to choose,
That today we had our last breath,
Then there’d be nothing we can do,
As the angel of death takes away our soul.
Then things will be too late,
And that would be devastating for us all.
But how about if,
If every last one of us so chooses,
To change his life for the better,
To be different and to give up all our sins,
To turn to Allah and be more self conscious,
Then perhaps that day won’t be as bad,
As the Angel of death will be gentle with us,
And so our soul will peacefully slip out,
And go back to our Creator,
Who started this all off,
And who we’d be nothing without.