I just can’t be bothered,
I just really can’t,
The end goal just doesn’t motivate me enough,
I feel sick of this life, this profession,
Will I really even be disappointed if I don’t get through this?
I’ll maybe feel more at ease actually,
That I don’t have to pursue something I don’t really believe in anymore,
So why toil after and break my heart over something that just doesn’t mean much anymore.
It’s good I didn’t pass the first time round then,
It’s taught me a lot,
How I’ve been running after and putting all of my strength and effort into one thing,
When there is actually so much more to life than this,
Things that are greater and better.
May Allah grant me strength to be better iA.