It was unfair,
That I was misled,
Walked down a path,
And ended somewhere I didn’t really want.
But hey…that’s life,
You learn those lessons the hardest way,
It opens you up to your flaws,
Like I needed to assert.
I allowed things to go on that way,
Not really saying what there were issues with,
Not challenging you,
Cos I couldn’t deal with the idea of losing you,
But now I feel like I have lost you,
I can just be me again, and roam freely,
And do as I please,
Without the pressure of pleasing you,
Without being self-conscious of what you think,
What anyone thinks,
For it doesn’t matter,
As I am living my own life,
I have a scale of deeds that is different to everyone elses.
I have my own path,
That is different to everyone elses.
Yes, there is noise around me,
Which I need to drown out,
So I can be me,
So I can put my own needs first,
Then the rest of the worlds.
I can try to serve the world,
But that is also for me,
So that I can attain the pleasure of Allah,
Not so I can just serve the world for the sake of the world.
How hard it is, to exist,
To be here, all alone,
But I hope Allah remedies that soon inshaAllah.