I’m soo angry you let me go!
You discarded me,
I felt like waste,
A tiny speck of dust in your life,
When you were so much more to me.
A human being who cared for humanity,
Who stepped up and took responsibility when no-one else would.
You had had enough,
You had reached your threshold,
And so you broke.
It’s never easy to decipher what was going on,
I would have preferred honesty and transparency along the way,
But I see now that I was broken too,
The truth would have battered me.
Eventually it came out,
And I was devastated.
You called it a damaged friendship,
That was your verdict, not mine.
And so here I am by myself,
Left to find courage and an opening by myself.
I was hurt, I was devastated, I was grieving, I still am.
But I’m finally starting to see some goodness that came from it.
I am taking responsibility for my life,
I have more time.
I am less restricted by the thoughts and views of other human beings.
I want to learn to depend on my Lord,
To become resilient,
So that I don’t need to run to others each time I have a problem.
I can turn to my Lord,
And be confident He is up there,
Listening and answering my call.
InshaAllah I will keep praying,
That one day I can reach a better place inshaAllah.
I hope you’ll be there too,
Alongside the best of Allah’s creation.