I’m doing some soul-searching,
And reaching to the inner depths of my heart.
Oh heart, how much I neglected you.
How much I focussed on the external,
On showing the world how pious I could be.
There was too much nifaaq,
And now I aim to rid myself of it.
Goals were pursued,
Treasures never materialised.
And so now I must step away and consider.
What was it that made things go wrong?
I thought I did all the right things,
What is wrong with me?
I think I’ve reached a conclusion,
There are diseases in my heart.
And so I must embark upon the path,
To rid myself of them,
So that I can reach my Lord with a pure and clean heart.
Free of vice and full of virtue.
Oh dunya, how much you deceived me.
Now I will turn away inshaAllah,
And try attaching myself to the akhirah instead.