I’m just exhausted with everything, life, all of it. I just think, what is the bleeding point of it all?
There just seems to be no solace here. I feel sick of working so hard and having little return.
I am hoping and praying that one day I see the benefits of this hard work in this dunya and the next, cos waiting for all the goodness in jannah is too long a wait – there needs to be smaller rewards along the way to maintain our momentum and to raise our spirits.
I don’t think islam is a miserable religion. I don’t think Allah is cruel or evil. He is waiting up there and will reward the believers as He promised. I do weakly believe this but am just finding it difficult to find the energy and motivation to worship in the way that I used to.
So I’m doing small acts of worship, things I can do sat down – reciting duas, etc. I have been thinking more about islam these last two days so something is working, Alhamdulillah.
I have felt peace when I have attempted to meditate. I managed to let go of some of the tension in my body and found this serenity within. They say that peace can be found within, and I think the body can provide an anchor for us to gently bring our minds to when we are troubled by our thoughts or our reactions to the events around us. But it is Allah who gave us this body to begin with. He is sustaining it, so all thanks should go directly to the source of all good within this dunya.
There is evil and there is good. In a world devoid of morality it can be difficult to distinguish between the two. We’re all struggling Oh Lord. How many of us can say we pray? How many of us can say that we love Allah and the prophet Muhammad pbuh more than everything else – our careers, our families, our goals, things we love in this dunya?